So, I'm sure you're all wondering if anything happened, right?
That would be a big fat NO.
Apparently, I wasn't invited out last night to help celebrate his birthday, which is fine. What I did get though was a text at 1:05 (am) asking what I was doing.
If that's not a booty call, I don't know what is. I replied back and told him I was going to bed. He then texted back and said he would catch me later. Umm, yeah. Maybe not.
Honestly, I did not see this going in that direction. I'm not a big fan of having "friends with benefits," I am a fan of "benefits" but more along the lines of a "relationship with benefits." Ya know??
I have been so patient, and I think that is what is biting me in the ass right now. Maybe someday he will realize what he could have had with a little respect towards me.
The other day a friend of mine was talking about how when she met her husband she was seeing a different guy. She knew that things would never be long term with the current guy, but thought there was a strong chance with the new guy. I actually remember when all this was happening and she was trying to decide between the two guys. She hated to let the first guy go because she really did care about him, but had to try things out with her now husband.
She made a really good point. What if she had stuck things out with the first guy? She would have missed out on so much! It got me thinking. How much have I missed out on dating guys that I know aren't "the right ones"? (I'm not going to say "the one" because I don't believe in that, but that is a post for another day) or even guys that I know won't commit but I keep trying to make them commit? We all know guys will do what they want to do one way or another. Why are girls so determined to make something work that is so obviously not going to?
I'm beating a dead horse here, and I know it. I know I didn't fail, but sometimes that is what it feels like and nobody likes to feel like a failure. I know I didn't do anything wrong, if anything I did borderline too much. I was too accommodating, too patient and waaay too nice.
Bottom line, the bitch switch in me has been flipped on and I'm kinda pissed. It's not full on pissed yet because I think I'm still in that "hurt" phase, but the more I think about it the more and more ticked off I get.
All I know is that, if I'm missing out on something right now, I won't be anymore!!