I. am. so. tired.
I'm working alllllll weekend and trying to squeeze in as much time with Cy as possible so that is leaving me a very tired Amber. Our schedules are pretty different, he works M-F and I work weekends. Bummer! I'm so used to it though, I think I'm just feeling the fatigue because things are getting much busier with the holidays right around the corner. That means, more stress!
I'm not complaining though, I swear! I truly love my job, but wouldn't we all love to stay at home on the couch all day and watch trashy tv?
So, other than having to work I have been having a fabulous weekend with Cy! We have had the most amazing talks the past two nights. Simply, amazing. I cannot believe how similar we are. We agree on almost everything, which I know is not always interesting, but the way we think is very much alike and I really like that.
Since we've met we have had this ongoing game of 20 questions going. We take turns asking each other questions about one another. Sometimes they are serious, sometimes they are goofy. Just random stuff! Well, Friday night I asked him if there was anything he has been wanting to ask me but was afraid to. He immediately asked me if there was something on my mind, I said maybe but that I asked him first!
After a few minutes he asked me if I was seeing anyone else. I am not, so of course I immediately told him that I wasn't and I didn't want to see anyone else. Then I asked him the same question and he said no. Whew!
Then, of course he asked me what I really wanted to know by asking that question. Of course this turned into a very long conversation about what we want. And, I mean we talked about some seriouuuuuus stuff! Kids, marriage, weddings... etc! Usually, this stuff freaks me out but it didn't this time. This time it felt normal. There wasn't an ulterior motive, it was just... talking. Talking about someday. No games, no "Ican'tsaythisbecausehe'llthinkI'mnuts" feelings and boy, oh boy did it feel amazing.
I finally got the courage to approach the divorce topic. First, I asked him when his last relationship was. He said it was a year ago, and that was it. So... that didn't get me too far. Then I asked him if he was married before. I was so scared to ask him this. My heart was beating so fast, I was so worried he would think I was nosy.
He didn't. He said that he was glad I asked him and that he had been trying to bring it up with me for awhile now. I asked him what happened and he said he got cheated on. He said they got married too young. Of course, I couldn't resist asking him if was completely over her because I didn't want to be a rebound. He starts laughing, hugs me and says yes, he is completely over her and I am not at all a rebound.
I feel so much better. I had a feeling that it was something like that, her cheating that is. Her loss!!! My gain. :)
Last night we went to visit a friend of mine who bartends occasionally at this hotel bar in town. As we were sitting there we started talking about taking a trip down to KC sometime at the beginning of December annnnnd he asked me to go with him to some Decmocrats Ball fundraiser thing also in December (obviously I will find out of from him again what exactly it is. Ha!). I am so excited because I get to dress up and he gets to wear a suit and... my heart is already starting to pound and I get butterflies when I think about it. I can't wait!!! :)
So.... that is the story! I couldn't be happier. This feeling is absolutely amazing!