Coming out... about my blog.

Last night as Cy and I were on the couch watching tv he looked over me and I had my Blackberry out. He asked me if I was "Twittering" and I said yes, I am "Tweeting". Then we got to talking about who was on my Twitter list of "friends" or "followers" and I had to let the cat out of the bag... All of my followers and many of the people I follow are... bloggers.

So, I finally (well, it feels like finally) told Cy about my blog and that I nicknamed him Cy. He loved his nickname and wants to read the blog. I've always known that I was going to let him read it, but I'm not really ready yet. I'm not sure when I will be. I know someday I will want him to read it, I think it will be an amazing thing to look back on when we first started dating. I am so thankful for the person he is though and he didn't push me to look at it right away, because for some reason I'm just not ready. After the "scandal" I had earlier this year when a friend saw a comment she didn't care for it really forced me to be careful of who I let IRL read my writing.

When he does read it, I hope he likes it! He absolutely loved his nickname and was grinning ear to ear. :D

Would you let your significant other read your blog? Why or why not?

Out of control shopping...

My shopping has been out. of. control. Seriously. I need to set a limit on what I can spend on myself for the next two months otherwise my family and friends are getting nada for Christmas!

Oh, and my limit I can spend on myself should be NOTHING! I do not need anything for the rest of the year. I'm a bargain shopper and couple that with being a fashion major and knowing the insane mark up on clothes stores have means I always find ridiculous deals because I'm willing to wait. But, those ridiculous deals add up.

A couple of weeks ago Payless Shoes had that 50% off sale and I went a little crazy buying shoes. I love name brands and would much rather be able to drop the dough on some Uggs or great shoes from Aldo, like these (which by the way, have turned out to be the most comfortable boots ever and I can wear them for 8 hours standing and not have sore footsies) but I'm not and I'm happy with shoes from Payless every once in awhile!

So, last night Cy and I were watching tv in my room and it was only the second time he had seen my bedroom (I am not that type of girl, it's just easier to lay down and watch tv there than the living room) and well, I had a mountain of shoes piled up against the wall. Including all the boots I have bought recently. Of course he noticed and asked me if I had enough boots... which of course I replied with a girl never has too many shoes...

It was funny, but a little eye opening. With only 50 days left to shop for Christmas I need to stop being so selfish! I haven't even started shopping yet, or made a list. Have you made your list or started shopping?

Today I'm off, so it would be a perfect day to get out there and pick up a few things. Tonight Cy and I are cooking enchiladas together. Should be interesting! I will let you all know how it goes...

Hope you're all having a great week!

Difficult, yet easy conversations...

I. am. so. tired.

I'm working alllllll weekend and trying to squeeze in as much time with Cy as possible so that is leaving me a very tired Amber. Our schedules are pretty different, he works M-F and I work weekends. Bummer! I'm so used to it though, I think I'm just feeling the fatigue because things are getting much busier with the holidays right around the corner. That means, more stress!

I'm not complaining though, I swear! I truly love my job, but wouldn't we all love to stay at home on the couch all day and watch trashy tv?

So, other than having to work I have been having a fabulous weekend with Cy! We have had the most amazing talks the past two nights. Simply, amazing. I cannot believe how similar we are. We agree on almost everything, which I know is not always interesting, but the way we think is very much alike and I really like that.

Since we've met we have had this ongoing game of 20 questions going. We take turns asking each other questions about one another. Sometimes they are serious, sometimes they are goofy. Just random stuff! Well, Friday night I asked him if there was anything he has been wanting to ask me but was afraid to. He immediately asked me if there was something on my mind, I said maybe but that I asked him first!

After a few minutes he asked me if I was seeing anyone else. I am not, so of course I immediately told him that I wasn't and I didn't want to see anyone else. Then I asked him the same question and he said no. Whew!

Then, of course he asked me what I really wanted to know by asking that question. Of course this turned into a very long conversation about what we want. And, I mean we talked about some seriouuuuuus stuff! Kids, marriage, weddings... etc! Usually, this stuff freaks me out but it didn't this time. This time it felt normal. There wasn't an ulterior motive, it was just... talking. Talking about someday. No games, no "Ican'tsaythisbecausehe'llthinkI'mnuts" feelings and boy, oh boy did it feel amazing.

I finally got the courage to approach the divorce topic. First, I asked him when his last relationship was. He said it was a year ago, and that was it. So... that didn't get me too far. Then I asked him if he was married before. I was so scared to ask him this. My heart was beating so fast, I was so worried he would think I was nosy.

He didn't. He said that he was glad I asked him and that he had been trying to bring it up with me for awhile now. I asked him what happened and he said he got cheated on. He said they got married too young. Of course, I couldn't resist asking him if was completely over her because I didn't want to be a rebound. He starts laughing, hugs me and says yes, he is completely over her and I am not at all a rebound.

I feel so much better. I had a feeling that it was something like that, her cheating that is. Her loss!!! My gain. :)

Last night we went to visit a friend of mine who bartends occasionally at this hotel bar in town. As we were sitting there we started talking about taking a trip down to KC sometime at the beginning of December annnnnd he asked me to go with him to some Decmocrats Ball fundraiser thing also in December (obviously I will find out of from him again what exactly it is. Ha!). I am so excited because I get to dress up and he gets to wear a suit and... my heart is already starting to pound and I get butterflies when I think about it. I can't wait!!! :)

So.... that is the story! I couldn't be happier. This feeling is absolutely amazing!

A case where persistence does NOT pay off.

The Boy is still around. Still trying. Still texting.

Yes, just texting. Which I am grateful for, it could be worse. But, is it annoying? Yes! My mom thinks I should just block his number but I think that he will eventually quit. He's got to!

Every week or so I get a text from him and usually it just says, "Are we still not talking?" Like we're this on again/off again couple that has been doing this for years. Yeah, right. About two weeks ago I got a text from him at 1am on Sunday saying how sad he is because he was in love with me. So, that's how you treat people you're in love with? Wow.

Well, last night Cy and I were sitting on the couch and had our Blackberrys out (we're both addicts) and was adding each other to our list of people to IM (or ping) and I noticed I had a regular text. I opened it, not thinking I shouldn't, right in Cy's eyesight and it was The Boy. It said, "Are we still not talking?"

I. was. so. pissed.

I felt like I had to explain. I am not even sure if Cy read it, but if he did I wanted to explain. I didn't want him to think that I could be seeing anyone else or am interested in anyone else. I told him the truth. Literally, that this guy was someone I was seeing earlier this year that will not leave me alone. He didn't say much, just that that must be annoying.

I'm thinking about emailing/texting The Boy to ask him to please stop trying to contact me and that we will not be seeing each other again. I figured this would stop but three months later and he's still at it.

Damn, this boy is persistent!

MIA

This week has flown by! Holy moly, I can't believe it's already Thursday! I am glad it is though, I've got plans tonight that I have been looking forward to all week.

Well, I know I have been MIA lately. It's due to several reasons. Being busy with work and my internet connection being really sluggish are the main reasons. I am so flippin' impatient and I hate it when it takes more than a few seconds to load a page. I know, I'm a spoiled brat. I just can't help it, it grates on my last nerve. I pay for a high speed connection so I was really annoyed when I figured out that that was what it was. Originally I thought I had a virus or something. This is probably because my parents had to have their computer restored recently because it was so overloaded with viruses. I have a Macbook and they have a desktop PC. It's about their third computer in a short while because of viruses and they will not listen to me about the quality of Macs... tsk, tsk! I'm a Mac girl through and through and will probably never change. The quality of the computers and the friendliness of the employees in the Apple store have won me over! Are you a Mac or a PC?

Anyway, back to my point. I took the computer into the Apple store and the internet popped right up so we knew then it was my connection. They told me to come home, turn off the router for a bit and that might do the trick. It did! Yay!

So, hopefully I will back blogging regularly! Good thing I didn't do NaBloPoMo, I would have failed miserably already.

Where I have been and what I have been doing!

Hey guys! Did you miss me? I can't believe I haven't posted since Thursday! I've been busy working and.... spending lots of time with Cy! I have been trying to tweet more though, so if you're not following me on Twitter please check out my tweets here! :)

Since I have left you all hanging here's a recap of the past few days!

Thursday I had the day off and I started it off by sleeping in. After getting my healthy eight, nine, ten hours of sleep I got my laundry together (which was three baskets overflowing!) and headed over to my parents to get it all done. While hanging out there I caught up on some tv shows that were on their DVR and read at little bit of Kate Brian's Private series. That night my sister and I decided to go shopping after we saw the 50% off coupon for Payless Shoes. I'm not picky about brands so I was all about this! I bought FOUR pairs of boots! Haha! I just couldn't resist. We also hit up Gordman's because they were having a clearance sale and all their clearance was an additional 50% off! What can I say? We were in the mood to bargain shop! Do you have a Gordmans near you? It's pretty fun if you're in the mood to dig! Here is what I scored:

The fourth pair of boots are not pictured because I bought them the day after this haul, but they are the taller tan ones. I know, I know I did not need both the short and the tall ones but I don't care. For $20 I can have them!

Besides the four pairs of boots I scored:

A pair of skinny Silver jeans for $10. Yes, $10. That is a steal!

A fleece jacket for $15

A cute tank top (pictured in the middle) for $3

Two basic camis for $15

A dark green sweater (b/c I decided I needed something in that shade of green) for $13

A bottle of Kenra hairspray (the best hairspray ever) for $15

Three pairs of earrings for $2

Black legwarmers for $2

Total spent (with cost of boots) $120! Can you believe it?

Tomorrow I'm headed to Express to pick up some more of their skinny jeans because they are on special at buy 1 get 1 half off and I am in desperate need of skinny jeans. All my jeans are flares and tucking them into boots just doesn't work.

Friday I slept in till about 8:30 then headed out for and oil change and my bi-weekly manicure before going to work at 1pm. After work I headed over to Champps for a couple of beers before seeing the Michael Jackson documentary, This Is It. It was really, really good! It was very interesting to see what went into putting together his concert. It looked like it would have been a phenomenal concert.

Saturday I had to work til 2pm, then I headed to my parents for a little bit then home to get ready to go to a Halloween party with Cy. Neither of us were dressing up as it was sort of a last minute thing. We had a good time though! When he came to pick me up he had a present for me... He bought me the movie Muppets Christmas Carol! It was really cute because the other day he found out I hadn't seen it and decided I needed to so he bought it! It was very unexpected and very sweet!

Sundays I usually go out with my old roomie for "Sunday Funday" and this time I invited Cy. We met at 10 am to headed over to a local sports bar for bloody marys, lunch and some football. One of my favorite things to do on a Sunday! We hung out there for awhile then decided to go rent some movies. He hadn't seen The Proposal or Across the Universe, two of my favorites so we went back to my place and parked ourselves on the couch until about 11pm that night! We had so much being couch potatoes together!

That pretty much sums up what I have been up! What have you been up to?

Twitter

Good afternoon, friends! :)

I know many of you use Twitter and I am trying to bulk up my list of followers and people I am following. I keep my tweets locked for personal reasons but know that this probably hinders my chances at creating a bigger following.

Do any of you keep your tweets locked? What suggestions do you have for finding more followers? Do you reply to people that don't follow you, but you follow them? I have several that I comment on, on a regular basis but they must not check their replies and follow those people.

If someone requests to follow me I almost always approve (unless it's a spammer) and then turn around and follow them. I obviously don't expect this to happen with the celebrities, but it's cool when they do! Like Britney Spears turned around and followed me! How cool! I'm sure it's not actually HER but still, pretty neat and made me grin! :)

If you are interested in following me here is the link to my page! Amber's Twitter page! I've been checking it and tweeting a lot more than Facebook lately and am becoming quickly addicted! :)