Hope everyone had a good Easter!
I know I have been a little absent lately. There's been a lot going on.
After deciding to go public with the blog, I immediately regretted it. A very dear friend of mine read a not so nice comment from me. I felt absolutely awful. Things are okay now, but it really got me thinking about how often I judge other people and gossip. So, I have made a commitment to myself not to gossip anymore. I know it's hard not to and I probably will sometimes but I want to make a better effort to put myself in the other persons shoes.
Also this past week things went a little south with the guy I was seeing. I honestly can't tell you if we're still dating or not. One half of me says no, and the other half says yes. On Friday night we talked (through Facebook IM) and he said he wanted to slow down. That he's gotten really busy with work recently and feels bad that he can't hang out with me all the time. I get where he is coming from, my career is very important to me, and I tend to be a workaholic as well. With this new job, I am hourly though and overtime is NEVER allowed. I cannot work over 40 hours, which is new to me. With CLL I tended to work between 45-50 hours a week and I worked Mon/Wed nights at a local sports bar. I quit working at the bar a little over a month ago, so just have the new gig going now.
I guess the pessimistic side of me is thinking this is just his way of letting me down gently. Jury's still out on that one... I'm just going to go with the flow and if something happens, great! If it doesn't, I know there are plenty of other fish in the sea!
I do think it's fair to date other people -- I need to learn how to not put all my eggs in one basket. I'm still very interested, but I have to protect myself. To be honest with you all, since things ended completely with the Big Ex in January I have felt really ready for a new relationship. Sounds crazy but I don't think I was ever completely over him, even during the five years we lost touch. This time it feels over for good. You have no idea how good it feels to be able to say that!
So, last night I was out with a ton of friends from high school. There's this kid that I guess likes me. I say "kid" because when I was a senior he was a sophomore. I graduated with his older brother and he was always the "Little [insert last name]" so it's just a little weird. He was flirting with me and buying me drinks all night long. We found out that we both tend to spend a lot of time up at Lake Okoboji in the summers. His family owns a cabin up there and one my best friends has cabins up there as well. His are near my friends too on the west side of the lake. We exchanged numbers and texted a little bit today. I'm just not sure though. I'm really not opposed to seeing guys younger than me at all. The guy I am currently seeing (?) is the same age as this guy from high school, which was really spooking me last night but I think that is just because I knew this guy in high school and would have never dated him back back thenl just because it would have been weird!
I'm just going to go with the flow. I keep saying that, but honestly if I don't keep saying it I will start to manipulate and over analyze everything.
I. have. to. stop. over. analyzing.
I seriously don't know how though, besides to keep repeating that I have to go with the flow. Seriously, are you sick of me yet? Ha!
That's basically my life in a nutshell! I can't believe I have been at the new job a month now, it feels like way longer! I move back into my own place in 15 days. Woo hoo! Can't wait!
What's been going on with ya'll? I've been saying ya'll lately, don't ask me why. I guess I want to be Southern. Or actually I want a Southern man. If you have not dated one before... let me tell you, they are the best. I love being called "baby", "sunshine", "sweetie", or any other term of endearment. Down there everyone is a pet name and at first it bugged me (I mean, my boss called me Babe, weird!)
Seriously though, how is everyone?!