Friday, August 28, 2009

The mopey post..

I haven't wanted to blog lately, I don't know why I am in this funk but I am. I wouldn't necessarily classify myself as "down" just kinda "blah". More so, I'm bored and cannot seem to find the energy to get out and do something. Or find that thing I want...

And what I want is a boyfriend, but a boyfriend that is my best friend. I want that guy to come home to and couch it with all night before bed. A guy to make dinner with and watch evening tv with. A guy to walk the dog with or run to the grocery store with.

Every time I think I have someone that might possibly be it, something happens. He does something that I just know I can't stand to live with forever (or even for the next couple weeks) and it's over for me.

See, I don't settle. That is why I am alone most of the time. If I don't really like a guy I cannot pretend and spend all this time with them. I would rather be alone.

I know I have to keep having faith. I truly believe that God will lead you to the person you're supposed to spend the rest of your life with. I'm just hoping he's planning on doing this soon, because I am really bored!

Now, don't get me wrong. I am not one of those girls in a hurry to get married and start a family. It is not a race for me. Not one bit. There are four of us in my close group of friends and two of us are married. I will probably be the last to get married because A. I'm the youngest and B. I'm extremely picky. I'm okay with this, and honestly don't care. Because, girls that just want the ring and the wedding are setting themselves up for disappointment.

I hate being disappointed. So, I avoid it at all costs.

The Boy is still trying, which I commend him for. Although it's getting a little annoying (even though deep down I sorta enjoy the attention) but what's most annoying is the fact that he thinks he's trying so hard. All he has done is a few texts and a few IM's on Facebook. Hardly going out of the way. Maybe I'm living in a movie, but I want more than that. He needs to knock my socks off if he thinks he's going to get me even remotely interested again.

Even then, I'm just being a bitch because no. I don't think I would then be interested either. I know he's most likely not the right one, because going back to what I just said. I don't like to settle.

Meh... I will snap out of this. Hope you guys have a great weekend! Thanks for reading!


Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Totally know what you mean. I seem to be always single. Just the way it goes for me I guess? I know he's out there somewhere, he's just taking his sweet ass time to find me. I won't settle either, and I'd rather be alone than be w/ someone that doesn't meet my standards.

I hope you snap out of your funk soon - I've been there & it's not a fun place to be and being in that kind of funk doesn't attract the kind of guys we want to attract! :)

Amber said...

I hate being in funks like that! NOT fun!!

The right guy will come along at the right moment, and probably when you least expect him too!

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

i completely know how you feel.....

CIP said...

I want the same thing :( It sucks.

d.a.r. said...

He's out there, I promise!! Don't settle, you deserve a prince!

marisol said...

I so know what you mean. And don't settle for anything less. You deserve the best.