Fitting quote...

"Sometimes you have to forget what you want, and remember what you deserve."

I recently came across this quote from this super sweet blog, Classy in Philadelphia. It is so fitting for what I am going through. Now if only I can follow the authors advice.

What would you do?

Today I came across some news that directly affects someone that is very close to me. I'm just curious what you all would do in my shoes...

I have seen the same guy very off and on for the past 13, almost 14 years now. We have not be in touch for the past 5 years. Our longest streak, but in that time I have moved several times and dated several different people seriously.

Back in November we ran into each other. It's shocking it has taken this long, as some friends of friends of mine are good friends with him. Ever since then we have been like magnets to each other. We try to stop talking to each other, and we keep failing. The reason why I want to stay away is last year his girlfriend discovered she was pregnant. She had the baby late October and during her pregnancy she decided she was not in love with him and broke things off. He has had a really hard time taking it and is still struggling with it. Then I come along.

It's hard for me to hear him say he's not over her, but I have to put myself in his shoes. I've been there where it just seems impossible to get over someone. That is where he is right now. He's not over her, but he wants to spend time with me too. He says he's willing to try with me, and that recently he has discovered that when he is with me he doesn't think about her. Most people would say no, he can't have his cake and eat it too. But, he's not. A part of me feels like we ran into each other for a reason. He needs me to help him get over the drama that was his life last year and I need him to get through this difficult part of my life with my store closing. He is so down in the dumps right now, it's heartbreaking. The other night he said he felt the same way as me regarding us running into each other as fate and he called me his saving grace. It definitely made my heart melt into mush.

Ok, now for the moral dilemma here...

He has a very good job with a privately owned restaurant chain here in town. He owns a portion of the chain and could possibly own all of them someday. Saturday night he was really upset because he had gotten news that the owner is thinking of shutting all the restaurants down. He loves his job and is very good at what he does. If he does shut them down, he would have to either buy the owner out or lose his job.

Earlier today one of my closest friends, who incidently has worked for the restaurant chain in the past came across the news that the owner of the restaurant has contacted her current boss to see if he was interested in buying the chain. He's been in restaurant management before, so I see why the owner contacted him.

I know that what I know isn't probably anything my ex doesn't already know, but I promised my friend I wouldn't say anything to him. Plus, I don't want to hurt my ex any more than he is already hurting.

I already know what I am going to do with the information, but just out of curiousity what would any of you do?

What I would like right now...

Things I need...
1. New job
2. Haircut (it's beyond bad now...) and color, but that could wait a couple more weeks
3. Coffee refill

Things I want...
1. New phone
2. Laptop repaired (I'm just getting impatient now!)
3. Severance pay -- the end of February is going to take way too long to get here!
4. New good book
5. Twilight movie on dvd

Things I can't have (but still want)...
1. New car
2. Bf/ex to quit throwing himself a pity party
3. Exotic vacation
4. House of my own
5. Puppy

Things I want, but shouldn't want...
1. Bf/ex
2. Cigarette

Reading List 2008

I have always been a big reader, ever since I was a little girl. Here is my list of books read in 2008. I know there are more but they were checked out from the library and therefore I cannot remember what the title and author is!
2008 was the year for series! I finally picked up the Harry Potter books (and fell in love with them) and the Twilight series (and became one of those pathetic "Twilighters" haha!)

Change of Heart - Jodi Picoult
Marley and Me - John Grogan
Not Quite a Mom - Kirsten Sawyer
Remember Me? - Sophie Kinsella
Love The One You're With - Emily Giffin
Stupid and Contagious - Caprice Crane
Certain Girls - Jennifer Weinter
The Beach House - Jane Green
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone - J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets - J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban - J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire - J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince - J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - J.K. Rowling
Twilight - Stephenie Meyer
New Moon - Stephenie Meyer
Eclipse - Stephenie Meyer
Breaking Dawn - Stephenie Meyer
Odd Mom Out - Jane Porter
The Washingtonienne - Jessica Cutler
The Frog Prince - Jane Porter
Mrs. Perfect - Jane Porter

Too many options...

There are just too many phones to choose from! Now I'm debating between the new Blackberry Storm and the pink Blackberry Curve. My main motivation for the Blackberry Curve is, well, because it's pink. I like pink. I like phones. Pink phones are fabulous in my book :) I like the Blackberry Storm because it has a touch screen, but do I really care about the touch screen? I worry with those getting easily broken, what if the callibration (or whatever it's called) get's all screwed up? I do tend to drop my phone a lot, so it needs to be durable... thoughts?

New phone shopping!!

Ok, I've had it with my current phone. I've been debating for the past couple of days between this phone, the pink Blackberry Curve:



And this phone, the Env 2:



I am a Verizon customer and do not plan on switching carriers. I am also planning on purchasing the phone from Ebay, as I do not want to have to committ to a new 2-year agreement and wait even longer for my free upgrade.
Any suggestions? Does anyone have a Verizon phone that they just love? I'm a huge texter, so any phone with a full keyboard has an A+++ in my book. I would also like something with internet browsing ability, but it's not necessarily a requirement.
Any suggestions are welcome! :)

Conference call pet peeve...

I'm sure this happens with every company, but you know what really pushes my buttons? When you're on a conference call with 20+ other people and one person has a page full of very specific questions that only apply to themselves. Don't ya think you should ask those during a one-on-one conversation or even email?
Just saying, why waste everyone's time just because you want to hear yourself talk?