It was so much fun though. We've definitely started a new tradition that we hope to do every summer. One of my best friend's husbands family has cabins at a very popular lake about 3 1/2 hours north of here and I go every time they will have me! Well, her husband has a tradition he hosts every summer called "Mans Weekend" so we decided this year to have a "Friends Weekend" of her friends and the weekends overlapped one night, so you can only imagine the craziness that ensued! It was so much fun though! Loved every minute!
I found out from some friends of mine that I do not see very often, that The Ex (which, is a term I'm borrowing from Jess!) brought another girl around to their lakehouse (different lake, just as fun!) a few weeks back. I was unaware he was dating anyone else and it just hit me the wrong way. They didn't realize I still had these feelings for him, and were saying how they wished it had been me with him. That they thought it was me because his date and I shared the same first name.
Immediately I burst out into tears and sorta spilled my guts to them. I'm sure the fact that I was three sheets to the wind did not help, but I've always believed "a drunk person's words are are a sober person's thoughts" and this was no different.
It was hard to hear that he was dating again, and it might sound naive, but I know his feelings for me are still there. There's just no denying it, we have known each other too long and will always hold a torch for each other. I believe he's doing what he thinks is best for me and will hurt me least because he knows he cannot give me what I want.