Dreams have always been interesting to me. The fact that my subconscious is telling stories while I am sleeping is just … weird.
I was so interested in the stories our subconscious tell that when I was in high school and worked on the school newspaper, I had an entire column devoted to dream analysis. Each month students would send in their dreams for me to analyze and publish. Cheesy? Yes. Humiliating? Maybe for some, but I enjoyed it. The other editors made fun of me for it, but I didn’t care. Now, almost 15 years later and I am still interested in dreams and sleep patterns.
As of this year I have been extremely intrigued by sleep patterns and have even been tracking my sleep with an app on my phone – but that is a post for a different day. I promise!
Today, I’m talking about a dream I had last Thursday night. I just have to get it on paper before it vanishes from my mind.
This particular dream included two of my ex-boyfriends. Yes, TWO!
Many of you will remember the dirtbag, Cy and some of you remember the nice (although too young) Nick. I don’t know why I protect Nick’s identity, but I do Cy’s.
Alright, I digress. The dream…
I had a dream that I ran into Cy’s best friend and we exchanged some pleasant, “Hi, how are you?” conversation before the conversation turned serious. His friend casually mentioned that Cy felt terrible for what he did to me, and that he would talk about how he missed me right after we broke up. Of course this made me angry (all in my dream of course) and I blew up at his friend, "How could he miss me? How could he be so cruel? So selfish? He’s bleeping married (again) now!"
That’s really all I remember about that part of the dream. Maybe there isn’t anything else, I’m not sure. I can’t remember anymore.
Then the second dream about Nick (both dreams in the same night!) and we were together, but he had proposed. I had said yes, but didn’t really mean it. I didn’t want to marry him, but I didn’t want to hurt his feelings either.
A week before the wedding we hadn’t sent out any invitations and only a few friends and family members knew about our upcoming wedding. I knew I had to call it off, but just couldn’t bring myself to hurt him like that. On the day of the wedding he had decorated the diner (yes, a diner!) with his high school graduation decorations and when I walked into the restaurant and saw “Class of 2004!” draped everywhere I knew that I had to do it. I had to call it off. This was ridiculous.
That is all I remember.
Weird, right??! Why would I be dreaming about running into my ex-boyfriend’s best friend and possibly marrying another one? Hopefully this is my subconscious’ way of telling me that neither of these guys were the ones for me and that the right one is on his way! The right one is just being held up… That’s what I like to think anyway. That is along the lines of what I would have said back when I was writing the EHS Scroll’s dream analysis column.
Do you remember your dreams? Do you think they have any special meaning?
Lately I have not been dreaming much... which makes me think I have not been sleeping all that deeply or enough. But I had a dream similar to your one about Nick, and dreamed I had said yes to the Barrister when he proposed, but in my mind I was like, "well I said yes, but we aren't really going to get married."
ReplyDeleteI think dreams are the way we work through things that we can't work thorugh during the day. Maybe Cy really does feel bad about how he treated you... and maybe the Nick dream reminds you to NEVER EVER settle for somethign that doesn't feel right?
Lately since I've been using sleep cycle I've noticed the nights where I have vivid dreams that I remember really well in the morning are also the nights where I sleep REALLY deeply! Like last night!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you told me that the nights where the sleep thing goes up and down are normal because now I can tell when I've been really tired and have an incredibly deep sleep and when it's just a normal sleep!
I agree with Lisa, I think dreams are ways we work through things that we can't work through during the day! If you occupied yourself with Cy and Nick during the day, that would just be too much.
ReplyDeleteI always have dreams about random people I haven't seen in a long time. Sometimes I'm slightly freaked out for the rest of the day.
My dreams are always so bizarre. In fact so bizarre that I always end up realizing I'm dreaming but continue with it to see where it goes. I think it's called lucid dreaming. Anyways, I have a membership at Golds Gym. I'm tryyyying to go there more, but I just love running outside way too much!
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